Journaling

Within hours of taking my pregnancy test, I was wanting to go to the store and buy a baby journal. Not quite sure why, but I knew I wanted to start journalling. But I didn't want to just do it as a blog, I wanted to write to our child. Hoping  that one day I can pass it on to him or her and it would mean something. So I got one, and I have only written in it a few times, but it makes everything a little more real and exciting. Of course I will still blog what I'm journalling, but my entries will be written to our little one. :) I'm also filling out a weekly questionnaire thing I have put in the book, so I will include that too.
So here is what I have so far:

Sunday, April 29th, 2012

Dear Baby G,
Today is the day we found out you were a reality. Mommy and Daddy have been trying and praying for you for months. Before you we did have another pregnancy, but lot that one. It wasn't that babies time, he went to be with our Lord. We continue to pray that you will be able to stay with us and we can hold you in our arms.
Yesterday morning when I went to walk Burton (he will be your biggest fan and companion), I got a little nauseous and the thought crept up... maybe?.. just maybe? After I took the test this morning and saw the pregnant symbol, I just smiled then told your daddy. He knew by the smile on my face what it meant.
I knew after losing our first, that Daddy and I were ready to be parents. Sometimes you have to lose something to really know how much you want it.
When I dropped off daddy at church for the parking team, he leaned over and gave me a kiss said goodbye then rubbed my belly and said goodbye to you too. Brought tears to my eyes.

Date: 5.2.12
This week, baby is the size of a: Poppy Seed
How far along? 4 Weeks, 2 Days
Due Date: January 7th
Total weight gain/loss: 0
Maternity clothes: Not yet  (thank goodness)
Stretch marks? No
Sleep: Very tired
Best moment this week: Watching Hollie cry when I told her
Have you told family and friends: Hollie, Marty and Heidi at work
Movement: Nope
Food cravings: not yet, but still using it as an excuse
Symptoms: Very tired and sensitivity
Have you started to show yet: No
Gender prediction: both? :)
Baby name: Not Yet
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy
Weekly wisdom: Stay positive and friendly at blood draws :)
What I miss: Nothing yet
What I am looking forward to: Hearing everything is okay
Milestones: 1 blood draw down: 305 hcg- higher then last time!

Monday, May 14th, 2012
Today is your last day of week 5. It also marks the first day you gave mommy her first round of morning sickness. Woke up in middle of night to take my prenatal and within 1 1/2 hours I was hugging the toilet throwing it back up. My exhaustion has gotten quite noticeable, I could probably sleep all day. I get dizzy and borderline nausea all day. :\ But I'm just happy I have symptoms, it is a little clue that you are growing! After a long weekend we moved in to your new home. We need some work to make it safe for you on the outside, but soon enough it will be cozy for you on the inside!
Daddy and I finally spread the word about our growing peanut to our family this weekend. Your grandmothers teared up and your Aunties and Uncles are very excited! We have told mostly all of our close friends. At least the ones we have seen in person. It is very exciting to hear all the congratulations.
Today we go in for our first doctor appointment to meet the mid-wife team that will help bring you in to this world. Soon we will get an ultrasound to see you on camera. Can't wait!

Wednesday, May 16th, 2012
Yesterday was an amazing day. Daddy and I headed off to our ultrasound appointment and right away we were able to see this flicker of light on this little mass in my uterus. Come to find out, it was your heartbeat we got to see! How incredible is that? I knew what to look for, but it took daddy a little longer to find the blinking light. When he saw it a smile came across his face. We knew at that moment, you were real and alive! Glorious! We got to take home a little picture of you tucked away in your home (my womb).
Daddy promptly tried to get a good picture of it to be able to text it to your grandpa to announce you. I paused and thank our Lord for giving us such an amazing gift of life. Today daddy was so excited about you he showed everyone your new picture, that warms my heart! Today was also the third morning that the raising hormones have made me sick and vomit :( I feel quizy most of the morning and then exhaustion sets in. My body is working as hard as someones body that is running a marathon! Wow that is hard!

Date: 5.17.12
This week, baby is the size of a: Small pea
How far along? 6 Weeks, 3 Days
Due Date: January 8th
Total weight gain/loss: -1 (too much diarrhea and vomiting!) 
Maternity clothes: The would be comfortable, but no
Stretch marks? Not yet
Sleep: Lots of dreams- but I could sleep all day
Best moment this week: Seeing the heartbeat
Have you told family and friends: Almost everyone
Movement: Nope
Food cravings: Burgers and greasy food (probably just cause it is easy)
Symptoms: Nausea, sensitivity, vomiting, fatigue, moody
Have you started to show yet: No,  I wish I could blame my chub on it 
Gender prediction: both? haha I wish
Baby name: We will see (but daddy calls you a crumb cruncher)
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy 50% and Moody 50%
Weekly wisdom: Eat small meals all day
What I miss: Not feeling sick all day long
What I am looking forward to: 2nd Trimester
Milestones: 1 blood draw down: Ultrasound- heartbeat!