Within hours of taking my pregnancy test, I was wanting to go to the store and buy a baby journal. Not quite sure why, but I knew I wanted to start journalling. But I didn't want to just do it as a blog, I wanted to write to our child. Hoping that one day I can pass it on to him or her and it would mean something. So I got one, and I have only written in it a few times, but it makes everything a little more real and exciting. Of course I will still blog what I'm journalling, but my entries will be written to our little one. :) I'm also filling out a weekly questionnaire thing I have put in the book, so I will include that too.
So here is what I have so far:
Sunday, April 29th, 2012
Dear Baby G,
Today is the day we found out you were a reality. Mommy and Daddy have been trying and praying for you for months. Before you we did have another pregnancy, but lot that one. It wasn't that babies time, he went to be with our Lord. We continue to pray that you will be able to stay with us and we can hold you in our arms.
Yesterday morning when I went to walk Burton (he will be your biggest fan and companion), I got a little nauseous and the thought crept up... maybe?.. just maybe? After I took the test this morning and saw the pregnant symbol, I just smiled then told your daddy. He knew by the smile on my face what it meant.
I knew after losing our first, that Daddy and I were ready to be parents. Sometimes you have to lose something to really know how much you want it.
When I dropped off daddy at church for the parking team, he leaned over and gave me a kiss said goodbye then rubbed my belly and said goodbye to you too. Brought tears to my eyes.
Date: 5.2.12
This week, baby is the size of a: Poppy Seed
How far along? 4 Weeks, 2 Days
Due Date: January 7th
Total weight gain/loss: 0
Maternity clothes: Not yet (thank goodness)
Stretch marks? No
Sleep: Very tired
Best moment this week: Watching Hollie cry when I told her
Have you told family and friends: Hollie, Marty and Heidi at work
Movement: Nope
Food cravings: not yet, but still using it as an excuse
Symptoms: Very tired and sensitivity
Have you started to show yet: No
Gender prediction: both? :)
Baby name: Not Yet
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy
Weekly wisdom: Stay positive and friendly at blood draws :)
What I miss: Nothing yet
What I am looking forward to: Hearing everything is okay
Milestones: 1 blood draw down: 305 hcg- higher then last time!
Monday, May 14th, 2012
Today is your last day of week 5. It also marks the first day you gave mommy her first round of morning sickness. Woke up in middle of night to take my prenatal and within 1 1/2 hours I was hugging the toilet throwing it back up. My exhaustion has gotten quite noticeable, I could probably sleep all day. I get dizzy and borderline nausea all day. :\ But I'm just happy I have symptoms, it is a little clue that you are growing! After a long weekend we moved in to your new home. We need some work to make it safe for you on the outside, but soon enough it will be cozy for you on the inside!
Daddy and I finally spread the word about our growing peanut to our family this weekend. Your grandmothers teared up and your Aunties and Uncles are very excited! We have told mostly all of our close friends. At least the ones we have seen in person. It is very exciting to hear all the congratulations.
Today we go in for our first doctor appointment to meet the mid-wife team that will help bring you in to this world. Soon we will get an ultrasound to see you on camera. Can't wait!
Wednesday, May 16th, 2012
Yesterday was an amazing day. Daddy and I headed off to our ultrasound appointment and right away we were able to see this flicker of light on this little mass in my uterus. Come to find out, it was your heartbeat we got to see! How incredible is that? I knew what to look for, but it took daddy a little longer to find the blinking light. When he saw it a smile came across his face. We knew at that moment, you were real and alive! Glorious! We got to take home a little picture of you tucked away in your home (my womb).
Daddy promptly tried to get a good picture of it to be able to text it to your grandpa to announce you. I paused and thank our Lord for giving us such an amazing gift of life. Today daddy was so excited about you he showed everyone your new picture, that warms my heart! Today was also the third morning that the raising hormones have made me sick and vomit :( I feel quizy most of the morning and then exhaustion sets in. My body is working as hard as someones body that is running a marathon! Wow that is hard!
Date: 5.17.12
This week, baby is the size of a: Small pea
How far along? 6 Weeks, 3 Days
Due Date: January 8th
Total weight gain/loss: -1 (too much diarrhea and vomiting!)
Maternity clothes: The would be comfortable, but no
Stretch marks? Not yet
Sleep: Lots of dreams- but I could sleep all day
Best moment this week: Seeing the heartbeat
Have you told family and friends: Almost everyone
Movement: Nope
Food cravings: Burgers and greasy food (probably just cause it is easy)
Symptoms: Nausea, sensitivity, vomiting, fatigue, moody
Have you started to show yet: No, I wish I could blame my chub on it
Gender prediction: both? haha I wish
Baby name: We will see (but daddy calls you a crumb cruncher)
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy 50% and Moody 50%
Weekly wisdom: Eat small meals all day
What I miss: Not feeling sick all day long
What I am looking forward to: 2nd Trimester
Milestones: 1 blood draw down: Ultrasound- heartbeat!
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Friday, May 18, 2012
Growing Griffins
We will make it official.... Dennis and I are expecting! I hear all the time that we shouldn't be telling people yet, but honestly its a little to exciting to keep in, and if anything happens I would rather have a support system, than have to tell everyone after and expect them to be there for me. I'm only announcing it on my blog for now, waiting a little longer for the world of FB! If you read my blog, then you get to hear the news first! :)
So let me fill you in! Almost 3 weeks ago I saw this:
I got very excited, but very nervous at the same time! We prayed and prayed that this time would be different. The next day I went in to get my HCG levels checked and then again 48 hours later, and they doubled! That is exactly what they were supposed to be doing. So then we figured it was good to at least tell people. We slowly started telling friends when we saw them, hearing all the congratulations was amazing! Finally got to tell our moms on Mothers Day :)
2 weeks later (fast forward to this week) we went in for our first appointment. I already knew things were different this time, I woke up Monday morning and threw up for the first time, and I wish I could say last time, but nope, every morning since then! Our midwife said that because of our Ectopic past we can go in for an urgent ultrasound (typically you wouldn't get your first ultrasound til around 8 weeks, I was only at 6 weeks). I jumped at the chance to see if little peanut was in the right place!
Tuesday afternoon Dennis and I rushed down for our ultrasound appointment, as I had a few with the last one, the ultrasound wasn't so new, but the possibility of actually seeing something this time was exciting! It didn't take the tech long before she stopped on my uterus and for the first time it wasn't empty! I could see something at the top, by the not concerned look on her face, I figured that was a good sign. Then she moved to a little better view and I could see the flickering light! I knew what that meant, tears started rolling down my face as I asked, is that the heartbeat? She said yes, it is beating very strong and looks very healthy! It took Dennis a little longer to figure out what we were looking at, but when he did, I saw a smile come over his face that just warmed my heart!
When the tech asked if we wanted a picture printed out, I couldn't even open my mouth before Dennis jumped up and yes, of course we do! So here is the picture of our little peanut (although Dennis calls him our Crumb Cruncher!). The big black dead space is my uterus, and the round circle in the upper part is the babies sack (what feeds him before the placenta is formed), attached to the sack is this little rice looking thing, that is our baby!!!!
I know that things are different then last time, I know that at least our little one made it in the right place, but I'm still trying to shove out the negative thoughts that something can still go wrong. But of course it can at anytime with anyone. I will just try and enjoy what I can.
Talking about enjoying it.... I thought when I got pregnant it would be this wonderful miracle. It is a miracle, but its not as amazing yet as I had imagined. I remember after we lost our first, the thought of a pregnant woman complaining saddened me. I always thought if only I was pregnant, I would take all those bad things and just be happy. I'm happy please don't get me wrong, but I'm having a hard time. Every symptom I could get, I am getting. TMI- my nipples are extremely sensitive, just the thought of a touch makes them ache in pain. Exhaustion has set in so deep I find myself dosing off at work. If that wasn't bad enough, every morning I wake up, I have diarrhea and vomit before I can even let the dog out. About 75% of the rest of the day I am on the verge of puking, lots of dry heaving and headaches. Very bloated, gassy, and feeling stretching in my tummy. But I'm loving it. Because I know with every horrible symptom its just a little reminder of the reality that I have a little one growing inside my belly.
Please continue to pray for our Growing Griffin. He is estimated to arrive on or around January 9th (the doctor just changed our due date).
So let me fill you in! Almost 3 weeks ago I saw this:
I got very excited, but very nervous at the same time! We prayed and prayed that this time would be different. The next day I went in to get my HCG levels checked and then again 48 hours later, and they doubled! That is exactly what they were supposed to be doing. So then we figured it was good to at least tell people. We slowly started telling friends when we saw them, hearing all the congratulations was amazing! Finally got to tell our moms on Mothers Day :)
2 weeks later (fast forward to this week) we went in for our first appointment. I already knew things were different this time, I woke up Monday morning and threw up for the first time, and I wish I could say last time, but nope, every morning since then! Our midwife said that because of our Ectopic past we can go in for an urgent ultrasound (typically you wouldn't get your first ultrasound til around 8 weeks, I was only at 6 weeks). I jumped at the chance to see if little peanut was in the right place!
Tuesday afternoon Dennis and I rushed down for our ultrasound appointment, as I had a few with the last one, the ultrasound wasn't so new, but the possibility of actually seeing something this time was exciting! It didn't take the tech long before she stopped on my uterus and for the first time it wasn't empty! I could see something at the top, by the not concerned look on her face, I figured that was a good sign. Then she moved to a little better view and I could see the flickering light! I knew what that meant, tears started rolling down my face as I asked, is that the heartbeat? She said yes, it is beating very strong and looks very healthy! It took Dennis a little longer to figure out what we were looking at, but when he did, I saw a smile come over his face that just warmed my heart!
I know that things are different then last time, I know that at least our little one made it in the right place, but I'm still trying to shove out the negative thoughts that something can still go wrong. But of course it can at anytime with anyone. I will just try and enjoy what I can.
Talking about enjoying it.... I thought when I got pregnant it would be this wonderful miracle. It is a miracle, but its not as amazing yet as I had imagined. I remember after we lost our first, the thought of a pregnant woman complaining saddened me. I always thought if only I was pregnant, I would take all those bad things and just be happy. I'm happy please don't get me wrong, but I'm having a hard time. Every symptom I could get, I am getting. TMI- my nipples are extremely sensitive, just the thought of a touch makes them ache in pain. Exhaustion has set in so deep I find myself dosing off at work. If that wasn't bad enough, every morning I wake up, I have diarrhea and vomit before I can even let the dog out. About 75% of the rest of the day I am on the verge of puking, lots of dry heaving and headaches. Very bloated, gassy, and feeling stretching in my tummy. But I'm loving it. Because I know with every horrible symptom its just a little reminder of the reality that I have a little one growing inside my belly.
Please continue to pray for our Growing Griffin. He is estimated to arrive on or around January 9th (the doctor just changed our due date).
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Cake Decorating Class
My friend Hollie and I decided to do something fun, and different. So we signed up for Cake Decorating Classes at JoAnn Fabrics. Since my mom works there, we got a killer deal. Buy one class get another free, then 20% off the class we paid for! Sweet! But didn't take in to account all the stuff you need for the classes, wow that adds up! We finished our Wilton Basics and next week start our Gum Past and Fondant course.
I was not a master at this class, I need some practice for sure! But I really enjoyed myself, and know I will use my skills for later!
For our first class we brought in cookies and learned basic skills of how to make icing, how to fill your bags and what the different tips do. Here is my Cookie Bear!
Second class we brought in cakes and learned how to layer the cake and fill it, frost them and learned more about tips and pressure and decorating. Mine is the cupcake, and Hollie did the fish, isn't it so cute!
I brought my cupcake/cake to work and everyone loved it. Hollie and I made confetti cake with Bavarian cream filling!
Third class we brought in cupcakes and got to learn about making flowers and more decorating. This was probably my favorite class, you can make so many different designs. (and you don't have to have smooth frosting!)
Last night was our last class and we had to bring in a cake already frosted. That is the hardest part, trying to get it smooth and not damage the cake! I make lemon cake with lemon pudding filling (Dennis' favorite!) Dennis wanted to bring it to work, so I tried to make red flowers, but it takes a lot of coloring to get to red, so they still look a little pink!
I was exhausted at last nights class, I fell like I rushed a little. But still like my outcome. Sad I didn't get a picture of Hollie's Happy Birthday cake to Marty, it was so cute, and she did green icing, which really made it pop!
Next week we learn about fondant and gum paste!
I was not a master at this class, I need some practice for sure! But I really enjoyed myself, and know I will use my skills for later!
For our first class we brought in cookies and learned basic skills of how to make icing, how to fill your bags and what the different tips do. Here is my Cookie Bear!
Second class we brought in cakes and learned how to layer the cake and fill it, frost them and learned more about tips and pressure and decorating. Mine is the cupcake, and Hollie did the fish, isn't it so cute!
I brought my cupcake/cake to work and everyone loved it. Hollie and I made confetti cake with Bavarian cream filling!
Third class we brought in cupcakes and got to learn about making flowers and more decorating. This was probably my favorite class, you can make so many different designs. (and you don't have to have smooth frosting!)
Last night was our last class and we had to bring in a cake already frosted. That is the hardest part, trying to get it smooth and not damage the cake! I make lemon cake with lemon pudding filling (Dennis' favorite!) Dennis wanted to bring it to work, so I tried to make red flowers, but it takes a lot of coloring to get to red, so they still look a little pink!
I was exhausted at last nights class, I fell like I rushed a little. But still like my outcome. Sad I didn't get a picture of Hollie's Happy Birthday cake to Marty, it was so cute, and she did green icing, which really made it pop!
Next week we learn about fondant and gum paste!
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Trailer Trash
It's official, we have started to move. Dennis and I have been weighing our options, we were unable to get the house that we truly desired, so we had to keep looking. After much prayer and debate, I finally entertained the idea of a new property that Greg (Dennis' boss) had recently acquired. The initial thought of living in a trailer scared me, thoughts of a nasty trailer park (there maybe nice ones else where, but here in Everett, most are run down and scary, unless of course they are 55+).
I finally got up the courage to check it out, this 'trailer' is really a manufactured home (they already cut the hitch off!) that just put on this lot, it still had that very distinct 70's feel to it, wood paneling, shag carpet and heavy curtains and all! It was still being seamed together the first time I saw it, but it was a huge lot, twice the house that we have now, and the kicker? It's less then half what we were paying at the condo!
I have already seen the look on others faces when we tell them the news.. but I'm getting pretty excited about it now. We started moving the kitchen and bathroom boxes last night, almost everything is done in the inside except for the new carpet. We are able to move everything in but the furniture. It was really nice to organize the kitchen (there are so many more cupboards then I'm used to!)
Burton has been there a few times, and loves, loves the yard, we had a hard time last night trying to get him to leave. There is a very large mean looking pit bull next door that I have a slight fear might eat one of my cats, but I pray they all get along!
The yard (lots of it) is in need of serious help, so if you have any skills or tools you would like to donate, please, please do!!! The door will always be open for family and friends!
So drum roll please.............. here it is!
What would make it better? Well a plastic pink flamingo in the front yard of course!
We are looking forward to embracing the trailer trash life style, coming soon will be our house warming party in the theme of trailer trash bash. Please start preparing your mullets, wife beater tank tops, and curlers in your hair! ( You think I'm joking?)
Welcome to the next step in our lives!
I finally got up the courage to check it out, this 'trailer' is really a manufactured home (they already cut the hitch off!) that just put on this lot, it still had that very distinct 70's feel to it, wood paneling, shag carpet and heavy curtains and all! It was still being seamed together the first time I saw it, but it was a huge lot, twice the house that we have now, and the kicker? It's less then half what we were paying at the condo!
I have already seen the look on others faces when we tell them the news.. but I'm getting pretty excited about it now. We started moving the kitchen and bathroom boxes last night, almost everything is done in the inside except for the new carpet. We are able to move everything in but the furniture. It was really nice to organize the kitchen (there are so many more cupboards then I'm used to!)
Burton has been there a few times, and loves, loves the yard, we had a hard time last night trying to get him to leave. There is a very large mean looking pit bull next door that I have a slight fear might eat one of my cats, but I pray they all get along!
The yard (lots of it) is in need of serious help, so if you have any skills or tools you would like to donate, please, please do!!! The door will always be open for family and friends!
So drum roll please.............. here it is!
What would make it better? Well a plastic pink flamingo in the front yard of course!
We are looking forward to embracing the trailer trash life style, coming soon will be our house warming party in the theme of trailer trash bash. Please start preparing your mullets, wife beater tank tops, and curlers in your hair! ( You think I'm joking?)
Welcome to the next step in our lives!
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